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Jan 6, 2008 18:10:51 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 18:10:51 GMT -5
Shane looked down at the floor. "At least you have family!" Shane said in a very hurt tone, her eyes showed it as well. "At least they would be there for you in emergancies..at least they would be there for you..even if you think they dont like you...they will always love you..At least you fucking have that!" Shane said as she looked back up at Carmen, her body tensed in pain.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:13:32 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 18:13:32 GMT -5
Carmen looked away, she knew Shane was right and she'd known from the beginning this was a horrible thing to do. But she had to do it. She pressed herself hard against the door. "I'm sorry Shane, I can't let you" she said quietly, hoping Shane would just leave it there and not try to take Shay by force.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:21:56 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 18:21:56 GMT -5
"Fine...I fucking came here to try and talk this out..but no..not any fucking more!" Shane said as she ripped the rings from around her neck and slammed them down on the floor, the rings bouncing and Shane looked up at Carmen. "I gave you fucking everything I have and now you are taking more then I have to give...Everything I have given you..is costing me fucking WAX!" Shane said almost growling.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:27:29 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 18:27:29 GMT -5
Carmen could no longer hold back the tears that had been trying to force there way out, she wasn't sure if she was crying because she was upset or scared. Maybe it was both. She'd never seen Shane this mad before, the only thing that had come close was when she'd held Carmen down to the bed the night she'd come home drugged. She didn't know what to say, her mouth opened but she was silent and just stood there staring up at Shane as the tears ran down her face.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:32:13 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 18:32:13 GMT -5
Shane felt bad for hurting Carmen. "Im sorry for hurting you..but..maybe this isnt ment to be.." Shane said as she felt herself start cry too. She looked into her eyes and touched her face softly. "You need someone who can be there for you....and do you think im that person?" Shane asked looking into her eyes.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:37:05 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 18:37:05 GMT -5
Carmen closed her eyes at Shane's touch, it only made the tears fall faster but she put her hand over Shane's to stop her from moving it. Her own hand was shaking. "I need it to be" she answered quietly, holding Shane's gaze this time though she obviously found it hard to. She didn't want to lose Shane but she could feel her moving away now Carmen had given her the opportunity.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:42:13 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 18:42:13 GMT -5
"Maybe thats not enough" Shane said softly as she pulled her hand away and turned on her heel and walked slowly towards the door. She placed her glasses on to cover the tears, but she took in a shaky breath and gripped the door handle. "Do you think it is?"
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Jan 6, 2008 18:45:54 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 18:45:54 GMT -5
"I don't know" Carmen muttered, shaking her head a little even though Shane wasn't looking. "All I know is I love you" she closed her eyes as she spoke the words, unable to watch Shane leave.
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Jan 6, 2008 18:53:28 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 18:53:28 GMT -5
Shane felt herself jump. "I love you too...but...maybe we should just be friends.." Shane said as she looked back over at Carmen with tears pouring down her cheeks. She didnt mean it, but it kind of slipped out of her mouth.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 18:57:10 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 18:57:10 GMT -5
Carmen let out a loud sob, her eyes fixed on the floor as she shook. She forced everything bac an took a few deep breath before trying to speak. "I don't know if I can do that Shane ... I don't know how I can be around you if it hurts this much" she whispered, trying her hardest just to keep herself standing.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 19:02:22 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 19:02:22 GMT -5
Shane looked at Carmen with sad eyes. "Neither can I...but I dont think this is going to work...I love you, but you always dont trust me when im around other girls.."
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Jan 6, 2008 19:05:18 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 19:05:18 GMT -5
"I'm sorry Shane, I shouldn't have acted like that the other day I know but it was her ..." she allowed herself to trail off as the sobbing took over again, she doubted she needed to explain anyway.
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Guilty
Jan 6, 2008 19:09:21 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 19:09:21 GMT -5
"Carmen..Im sorry..It was years ago, and I only did that because i was emotionally fucked up..Nothing happened the other day.." Shane said as she looked into Carmens eyes. "But you have to understand...She and I are friends..." Shane said as she looekd down at the floor.
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Jan 6, 2008 19:12:03 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 6, 2008 19:12:03 GMT -5
"I know nothing happened, I heard you tell her no, I just ... I overacted" she whispered, allowing herself to step away from the wall and come a little closer to Shane. "Please Shane I'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said"
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Jan 6, 2008 19:13:55 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 6, 2008 19:13:55 GMT -5
"Of course you did..You always do.." Shane said softly as she looked at Carmen and then looked down at the floor.
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