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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 16:53:42 GMT -5
Shane sat perched on the couch of her and Carmen's house. Carmen.. Shane thought as she sighed and looked around their house. I still love her..Do she still love me? Shane thought to herself as her gaze fell back to Carmen's room. Shane didnt know if she was in there or not. Shane ran her fingers through her hair as she let her head fall.
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 18:21:29 GMT -5
The door opened quickly and Carmen entered, earphones blasting music so she had an excuse to ignore Shane. It wasn't that she didn't still love Shane, of course she did, she wasn't the one who didn't want to get married, why wouldn't she want to?. She definatly had a right to be pissed off. Pushing the door shut with her heel she stormed through the living room, without even a glance in Shane's direction, and into her room.
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 18:27:03 GMT -5
Shane heard the door open and saw Carmen with her earphones blaring in her eyes. It hurt Shane that Carmen didnt speak to her, Shane didnt like to be un-knowlaged. Shane watched as Carmen walked into her room and she cringed as Carmen slammed the door. Shane ran her fingers through her hair and sighed. She stood up and tucked her hands into her pockets. She walked towards Carmen's room and knocked on the door. "Carm?" Shane asked softly.
((by the way they didnt get Engaged..not married..so shane couldnt have ran out on her..but she did refuse Carmens porposal))
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 18:33:25 GMT -5
((sorry, totally out of it, I edited))
Carmen wouldn't have totally refused to talk to Shane if she'd have heard her. But Shane was extremely quiet and Carmen still had in her earphones. She took her phone from her pocket and placed in on the table by her bed before laying down and staring at the ceiling. She hadn't felt right since Shane had said no, since then she'd had this weird feeling in her stomach, a knot that wouldn't go away.
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 18:40:44 GMT -5
((its ok ^.^))
Shane frowned as Carmen didnt answer her. Shane gripped the door handle and turned it slowly. She heard the door click as she opened the door and slipped inside. She closed the door and looked at Carmen laying on the bed...their old bed. Shane had given Carmen their old room and Shane now slept in Jenny's old room. Shane ran her fingers through her hair and just watched Carmen. Shane loved her so much, but was scared to tell her.
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 18:44:23 GMT -5
It took her a few moment to even realise she was being watched but finally Carmen noticed Shane out of the corner of her eye and jumped up into a sit on the bed. She straigtened up only a few moments after the shock and clicked the stop button on her ipod. "Hey" she mumbled, pulling out the headphones and putting the ipod by her phone. Again she seemed to slam it down, she didn't mean to, that had just been happening a lot lately.
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 18:48:22 GMT -5
Shane looked at Carmen and rested against the side of the wall. "Hey.." Shane said as she ran her fings through her own hair and placed her other hand into her pocket. She took a step forward and looked down at the floor. "How are you?" Shane asked, generally concerned about her. Shane missed her. Missed them.
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 18:52:55 GMT -5
Carmen laid back down on the bed slowly and turned her attention back to the ceiling, it was all she could do to stop from either hugging or hitting Shane, she wasn't exactly sure which was more likely. Rubbing her arm she took a deep breath before answering "Okay... I guess," she said, not able to look around at her.
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 18:55:32 GMT -5
Shane cringed as Carmen completely shuned her. "Look Carm.." Shane said as she sighed and took another deep breath and closed her eyes then reopened them. "Im sorry..I really am" Shane said as she looked at Carmen.
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 19:01:43 GMT -5
"Shane.." Carmen started but had to stop there, she didn't know where she could start, there was just too much to say. She didn't want to be like this with her but the memory of Shane telling her no was still fresh in her mind and she couldn't get it to go away. "Shane" she said again and her voice seemed to crack for a moment "can we just... not do this"
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 19:04:14 GMT -5
Shane stopped and looked down at the floor. "But i cant stand you ingoring me..it hurts.." Shane said as she looked up and walked closer to Carmen. "And i know i hurt you..and for that im sorry.." Shane said as she tucked both her hands into her pockets.
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 19:09:44 GMT -5
Carmen turned her head slightly as Shane came nearer and her eyes seemed to soften for a moment, though it was unclear if that was because she was holding tears back or not. "I know you are Shane" she whispered, biting at her lip lightly as she watched her.
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 19:15:53 GMT -5
Shane walked closer to Carmen and touched her shoulder. She bent down so she was eye level with her. She looked into her eyes and stroked Carmen's face. "But you dont know how much i am" Shane said softly.
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Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Dec 5, 2007 19:20:21 GMT -5
Carmen stared back at her as long as she could but finally had to pull her gaze away and stare out the window instead. It became obvious now that tears weren't too far away. She slowly let her hand move towards Shane's until it rested over the top of hers, though she continued to look out the window. Her hand shook badly but she just tried to ignore it.
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Post by Shane McCutcheon on Dec 5, 2007 19:24:07 GMT -5
Shane watched as Carmen looked away and felt her hand tremble. She kept looking at Carmen though, she so desperatly wanted to say the three words that are bottled up inside of her. She but was so scared to. She hurt Carmen, and she knew that this was all her fault. She knew that saying those words would make things worse.
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