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Jan 5, 2008 5:10:54 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 5:10:54 GMT -5
Carmen was getting worried. Shane hadn't come back last night and Shay wasn't taking any of this well. Right now he was asleep in his room, but that was only because he was too exausted to stay up any longer. It was already 10pm, was Shane going to spend another day away from home? Carmen cursed herself, she shouldn't have said the things she did, Shane hadn't deserved any of that.
Sitting on the couch in the living room Carmen had nearly finished off all the beers that had been left in the fridge, it was quite a few. She couldn't stand it, she'd caused this. Now Shane was missing and Shay was freaking out. Putting the empty bottle down by the side of the sofa Carmen laid back and closed her eyes, asleep in seconds.
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Jan 5, 2008 5:23:37 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 5:23:37 GMT -5
Shane McCutcheon. The words spoke by many girls as LA's top player. The words haunting Shane in her head. Her eyes were dark and her face was swollan. Mostly from crying, mostly from a nights of no sleep. She had on the same clothes as she wore when the fight took place. She had taken rufuge in her ute, not wanting to bother Thorn. Until now. If Carmen didnt want to marry her, then she couldnt get Shay. Were the one of many thoughts runnign through her head. She stumbled up the stairs and opened the door, still having a key. She looked around to see Carmen asleep on the couch with empty beer bottles surrounding her, Shane took in a deep breath. And for the first time walked past Carmen without a touch.
She opened Shay's door and saw him asleep. She quietly grabbed all his things and shoved them in his bag. She slung the bag over her shoulder and saw him asleep. She carefully picked him up and he curled up into her shoulder, still asleep but obviously still knowing it was Shane. She stroked his hair and picked up his bear that he slept with and walked out of the room. She took one last look then went for the door.
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Jan 5, 2008 5:31:39 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 5:31:39 GMT -5
Carmen let out a moan, her and covering her eyes as she had bloked out the light above her when awake. "Shane" she mumbled, still fast asleep as she rolled over to face the couch and fell silent gaain.
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Jan 5, 2008 5:37:54 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 5:37:54 GMT -5
Shane looked over at Carmen and heard her voice. She was still asleep. Shane set Shay down on the couch quickly grabbed some clothes for herself and grabbed a piece of paper. She grabbed a pen and started to write.
Carmen, Im sorry for what I did..And I know that you probaly won't be albe to forgive me. I don't forgive myself for hurting you. Im not good at apoligizes, but you deserve one.
I'm not sure how I feel right now. I need space. But I do know one thing..I love you And that is NEVER going to change.
Sorry.
Shane.
Shane took in a deep breath as she slid her ring off her finger and placed it on the note. She picked Shay up and opened the front door. She had to have some space. It was all her fault and she needed to think.
[[lol its abit dramtic...but i was thinking that maybe a couple of days later Shane comes back in need of some new clothes and then they have a big fight?]]
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Jan 5, 2008 5:43:10 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 5:43:10 GMT -5
Carmen didn't wake that night, and did not wake until around 11 the next day. her hand slipping off the couch she knocked it into some of the bottles which crashed togehter and woke her. Moaning she opened her eyes and got to her feet. She had made food for both herself and Shay before she realised anything was wrong. Only when she found he was missing did she spend enough time to notice the note.
The next few days she spent locked up at home in bed, she tired Shane's phone a few times but never got an answered, it didn't matter though, she had no idea what she would say.
((works for me))
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Jan 5, 2008 5:49:18 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 5:49:18 GMT -5
Over the next couple of days Shane had her cell turned off. She needed space, and talking to Carmen wouldnt give her that. She and Shay were both sleeping in the rooms of WAX. They were ok there, but Shane was running out of clothes. She decided to buck up the nerve and get some from Carmens house. It hurt her that there might not be a their house anymore. When Shay was at school Shane jumped in her ute and drove to the house. She stopped outside of the house and jumped out.
She walked up the stairs and quietly opened the door. Something wasnt right, everything was like it was the other night. There was no food eaten and Shane was scared. She walked and the floorboard creaked loudly. She looked around and placed a hand on the doorknob. She slowly turned it and opened it. She walked in and saw Carmen laying in bed. Looked like she had been in there since the last time Shane saw her.
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Jan 5, 2008 5:54:11 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 5:54:11 GMT -5
Carmen had her back to the door and was very much awake, but she did not turn to look. She didn't believe it was Shane, even though she'd felt a leap in her chest at the thought when she heard the door open. It was probably one of the others, coming to drag her out of bed now she'd laid around long enough. Pulling the covers tighter around herself the note Shane had left fell off the end of the bed, floating slowly down into the bedroom floor. The ink had run, the edges torn.
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Jan 5, 2008 5:59:00 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 5:59:00 GMT -5
Shane saw the note fall from the bed and turned towards the wardrobe. "Im just getting more clothes.." Shane said softly as she packed more clothes into her bag, she had on Carmens and hers wedding rings on her chain, which was clearly visable through the v in her shirt. She felt like she had got enough and went to leave the room.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:01:41 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 6:01:41 GMT -5
"Did you use it with her?" Carmen asked quietly, there were a lot of things she wanted to say, sorry being included in all but this one. She hadn't even thought about it, it just happened to be the first thing that slipped out when she knew she couldn't let Shane leave.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:06:06 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 6:06:06 GMT -5
Shane stopped but didnt face Carmen. "Use what?" Shane asked as she gripped the door knob and the gripp grew weak and her arm slipped down to her side. She couldnt face Carmen, couldnt see the look in her eyes. She looked down at the rings and she took a deep breath as she waited for an answer.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:08:31 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 6:08:31 GMT -5
She couldn't help it, rolling over in bed Carmen pulled the black shoebox from underneath and threw it towards Shane. "did you fuck her with it!?" she asked, sitting up in the bed.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:12:25 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 6:12:25 GMT -5
Shane felt the box hit her, she flinced slightly but didnt turn around. "Yes.." Shane whispered softly as she let her head fall. She was ashamed. But it was along time ago that that happened. She let the bag fall to the floor.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:17:18 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 6:17:18 GMT -5
Carmen let out a short laugh but it was obviously a bitter one. "I can't believe you. I did something I wasn't comfortable with for you and you let me go through with it knowing you'd used that on her as well. Do you know how fucked up that is Shane, you cheated on me with her" she said, not once bringing up that she herself had cheated.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:24:28 GMT -5
Post by Shane McCutcheon on Jan 5, 2008 6:24:28 GMT -5
Shane gripped the door handle and opened it, She grabbed her bag and walked out of the bedroom door. She wanted to get out of here, she didnt want to deal with this.She never did.
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Jan 5, 2008 6:27:03 GMT -5
Post by Carmen de la Pica Morales on Jan 5, 2008 6:27:03 GMT -5
Carmen couldn't let it go now, she pulled herself up out of bed and followed Shane out of the bedroom. "Just tell me why I'm never good enough Shane" she said, her voice a lot softer now, a little scratchy since she hadn't spoken for a few days.
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